Shipping Container

There used to be an old white shipping container around the back of our village hall in the village I grew up in, Worstead, and for some reason it popped into my mind recently while I was thinking about the Roskilde festival that I attended when I was 18. The loose connection is that on the last day of the festival all you could hear was the sound of people banging on an old shipping container. The banging went on all day until the container was in pieces. Anyway…

Shipping Container

We learnt to shin up, hauled by finger and toe tip,
on to your roof to laze in the sunshine.
Read comics, books and the clouds,
ataraxia in just a short climb.

Pisses were released behind you;
kisses were practiced to your side.
Unlucky for either if someone was above
as everything was announced to the skies.

You were the boat you came from
an ice station, a tank, and a high-rise block.
Never once fathomed, opened
despite stones thrown, and air rifle pot shots.

A Sargent jump at your side,
to touch the roof was a goal.
To leap off was a test of faith,
or to hang for a while, and then just fall.

Vital Signs

I’ve been trying to finish this for a very long time, and I could quite easily argue that I still haven’t, but after a month off work – I start a new one on Monday – I have finally found some time to sit down and write again. It’s mainly trying to finish some things off, rather than actual new stuff, but it feels like if I can get some of the backlog out of the way, then at least I can clear a path forwards.

Vital Signs

Two nights I dossed beside you.
The rasp of your lungs had thickened to hurt;
gained a viscous lurch.

For these few nights I no longer
knew the rise or fall of your chest,
couldn’t place your molasses breath.

Circadian rhythm has no bearing on your day.
You wake at 3am, and want to drive, to see stars.
This is the only time I will drive your car.

You sleep again, missing the procession of
deer and rabbits lining the road like a send off.
Ignore all the signs; let’s go get lost.

I am so tired I fear an accident;
as if killing you will make any difference.
We’ve come this far; let’s go the distance.

Home again, carrying what there is of you
to bed, the bones and the flesh.
Dozing off, I wake to that vicious breath.

It has stopped.

 

And a little light pissing about with some Haikus

Four Haikus:
Sock

Truly it is a mark
Of a sexual colossus:
The wearing of jazzy socks.

Woof

I’m off to see
a man about a dog. I need
to bark for myself.

Haiku

If you find that you
have seventeen syllables to
spare. Use them wisely.

All things being relative                                                    

I’m in a better
state than Ken Dodd’s dad’s dog is
right about now, mate.

 

 

While I’m on a roll..

I thought I would post another couple from the I guess they’re finished, I never know file.

For those of you watching in B&W 

We kiss like snooker balls,
glancing off in different directions
and sink cleanly into pockets
at different ends of the settee.

Garden Leave

Softly, softly catchee monkey, my arse.
Who’s got time for that these days, I ask you?
I was put out to grass,
but I swear I will out last you.

It’s too soon to have gone above & beyond,
and jumped the shark.
So thanks, but no thanks;
It’s an idea we will have to park…

I’m out to seed in a country house
while I have a blue-sky think about my actions.
Time to play with ideas, cause a fuss,
kick up an almighty stink, and gain some traction.

I’m only after my way in a court of law.
I want what’s owed, what’s coming
and I want what for.

Siamese Twins 

He annoys the shite out of me
at least once every month.
We’re closer than most, but
he can be a total cunt.

Twice a year I want to
start running in the other direction
and hope he’s stubborn enough
to hold his ground; honour his intentions.

We often joke that he got the looks,
and I got the legs, but we share the rest.
I say let’s see what takes whom where
and how far each of us gets.

It’s fair to say that in keeping us together
family has played no small part,
but when it all comes down to it;
He hasn’t got the heart.

This one I have been trying to finish for ages, years..You cold say I should keep trying, but I’m calling it, for now.

Of a kidney

Talking to mother across lines and airwaves,
she’s avoiding the issue with this and that;
all doodles and chatter about the welfare
and eating habits of the cat.

How quickly it becomes a part of everything.
The days planned to within an inch, your life grows old.
You take flasks with you now, knowing the tea
is like gnats piss gone cold…

You’re on first name terms with the nurses,
orderlies and ward sisters; bringing in contraband.
You know these corridors
like the back of a veteran porter’s hand.

Your iodined stomach becomes its own cave painting;
daubs of scars telling of skirmishes
dating back longer than we care to remember.
We hang back, in accordance with your wishes.

All of us know
we won’t be asked to play organ donors’ snap.
Card on the table time;
who knows when we may need it back.

 

Enough, now it’s back to actually working on some of the bits and scraps floating around…

Titles on the go at present..Work in progress

Some of these may even get finished.Any requests?

 

  1. Vital signs
  2. Smitten
  3. Hands 2
  4. Anton
  5. Aled Jones Impersonator
  6. Ghosts Of The Broads
  7. Working At It
  8. Legs
  9. Wiping Dads arse
  10. Obi Wan
  11. Samphire
  12. Spaghetti Arms
  13. Cupboards
  14. Galaxies
  15. Receiving
  16. Trace
  17. Strings
  18. Dave
  19. Skynet
  20. Bottling
  21. Remote Control
  22. Scissors
  23. Follow That Taxi
  24. Famous Last Words
  25. Anti-climb Poem
  26. Tableau
  27. Shipping Containers
  28. Captain’s Pond
  29. Scraps
  30. Hands free
  31. Curriculum
  32. Going Solo
  33. Seals
  34. Conditions
  35. Crow music
  36. All things being relative
  37. Haiku
  38. Dinner Party
  39. Woof
  40. The Decorator’s Lament
  41. Sock Haiku

New poems

I’m finally starting to ease my way back into writing. Ideas are coming, and I’m over coming the laziness inherent in me that stops me from fleshing them out. I’m trying to get up early to have some “writing time”, perhaps I should just have an extra hour in bed. We’ll see.

At least I’m reading again as well.

Have to recommend Jen Campbell‘s Hungry Ghost Festival, the recent Rialto, Stop Sharpening your knives, New Roger McGough, John Clegg’s Antler , Confusion Species by Suzannah Evans and a few more..Names escape me at the moment and the books are all by my bed upstairs. I don’t want to wake Rachael. (That’s my wife, not another book title)

While I am on a recommendation trip, I can heartily recommend the new Blood Everywhere album, Method. A track called House Is a Feeling is my current ear worm. It deserves to be a hit in the hit parade everywhere.

Anyway, now you’ve spent all your cash, here’s some things from me.

I’ve been working on this for a while. I thought I had finished it, but perhaps not..

Shed Door

Paint kettles and brushes dried solid
next to bags of nails, extension cords and screwdriver sets
pushed to the back and gummed in the works
settled in with a video recorder minus its flex.

A silenced orchestra of saws up on hooks, and
strings holding up Olympic rings of masking tape.
Each chisel nestled in its guard and box,
waiting to chip through, and step up to the plate.

No recordings exist of the swearing and banged fingers
caught up in the debate between
the precision of hand drills,
or the power tools’ arguments for speed.

I don’t want to open it
for fear of letting out a millilitre of your breath
stuck in jam-jars of screws, mixed in the marrow
in the bones of a mouse caught in the cobwebs.

And on an entirely different theme, here’s another one at a stage close to finished.

Selfless Cars (Title subject to change)

I remain quietly convinced
that cars start with a different noise at night.
The ignition goes sotto voce,
and they pull away in carpet slippers, quiet.

Come on, lean in with me now,
while this street, all the streets for that matter,
is still. Listen in, glass at the window:
You will hear nothing from the motors.

Yes cars will rush past;
they are up and running about,
carried away with themselves,
but in leaving their watch they will not shout.

Through argument or by design
they stifle the exhaust pipes’ cough.
Keep themselves to themselves
as the designated driver draws off.

Supply trucks up the arteries and trunk roads
won’t give it the full roar.
Down the dead carriages at night
they muffle both barrels and double bores.

Motorcycles couldn’t give two shits either way.

This one feels like it’s about my writing process, it might not be though, it could just be utter bollocks.

Conditions

Get the ducks in a row,
and the stars aligned.
Keep bear markets afloat
to nurture the right conditions
for creating your baby.
Keep a weather eye and watch for a
fair wind, down hill.
With hoops to jump through..
be sure to look before you leap.
Leave to rise like dough,
warm the pot.
Just do it.

After reading Fleur Adcock’s “Knife Play”…

…I was reminded of writing my own poem, “Knife Thrower’s Assistant”. I had not been aware of Adcock’s poem until @markanthonyowen made me aware of her work, at least beyond the wonderful Against Coupling

Any way, while her poem is infinitely better than mine, here is mine. I can share this one; hers will have all sorts of copyright issues and the like.

Besides, if it makes you go and buy her book then that can only be a good thing.

Knife Throwers’ Assistant

I hand myself to him on a plate
twice a day, night after night.
I am not one for tempting fate;
luck gets taken for no ride, or a fool.
NO FLASH PHOTOGRAPHY
is a steadfast, iron-cast rule.

Don’t talk to me of faith.
I have to remember the knives are thrown around me
and never at or against.
I have grown to see this:
His aim is his word, and it is true.
I freely take part in this tryst.

Trust being the currency here,
we spend it wisely.
We don’t talk after work or come near.
I need no holds over him, or he over me.
For obvious reason we keep the other
precisely where we want them to be.

Arms at five past and five to,
feet at twenty five to and past;
then a whoosh as the blade is passing through:
Six in as many seconds as balloons burst.
Even if he were to hit me
the show must always come first.

When I started people came here
to be entertained, or cheaply thrilled
It’s getting harder to keep the audiences’ attention;
sometimes I suspect blood needs to be spilled.

With thanks to http://www.painproofrubbergirls.com