So here is a wee sampler of Palm Reading…It’s nearly ready to be published via Lulu…just a couple more things to iron out…..Please do let me know if you are interested in a copy.
This is a link to the same as below, but on Scribd if you like that sort of thing.
Scribd link for Palm Reading
Softly, softly catchee monkey, my arse.
Who’s got time for that these days, I ask you?
I was put out to grass,
but I swear I will out last you.
Like a sleeping tiger,
you’ve kept half an eye
on exactly which side
your bread’s buttered on;
and maintained your stance in the eye of the storm
and kept more than a glance
in which directions the cookie crumbled.
You’ve always asked who’s batting or bowling
and from where the thunder rumbled;
taken note of what’s good for the goose,
and seen what’s preferred by the gander.
You observed and calculated
the sweet spot of your dander,
and exactly how it’s raised.
Lord be praised!
You’ve chanced upon something.
I’ll Eat My Hat
The bed I am laying in
has been made.
It’s not a case of the cap fitting;
this being no fashion parade.
My ears are not whiskers
for the gauging of breadth and width.
If it’s stretched and tugged,
and pulled over lugs, it will fit.
In spite of the danger of tearing it,
the cap is on.
And I’m bloody well wearing it.
The mother was too exhausted to help,
everyone got her to her feet.
You milked her while a bottle was found;
someone tried to rustle up a teat.
You remember the hungry tongue,
and the strength required to hold on.
The unconditional love in his eyes
made you think of your own young
and my time in the incubator;
a yellow tinge to my skin,
and the uneasiness of the first time mother
as someone else helps your offspring.
After the un-tethering of the umbilical cord,
as the vet patched up the mare,
you were witness to the first punch-drunk steps;
the still slick tail and the mother’s glare.
Each awkward hoof going sideways,
each leg wanting to see different places
in the barn, slipping on straw
as someone cracked a gag about sadness and long faces.
Let us not talk of the places
I would not return from.
I am already train-ward bound back
just to hold you,
to smooth over hair and try to hold back tears
like Canute’s daughter.
There is no ocean I would not cross
by hand and foot, or by boat to be here.
No burning coal I would not dance over,
or map wide enough to prevent
feeling you push me away
and hear you say
that you are fine.
Kizelbel, September 2004
Last night was all too perfect.
The only noise was the local crickets’
nightly jam session in the hills.
All conversation was of insect music,
as one lone virtuoso near our balcony
sang his own exquisite love songs.
The midges massed to our left
like a Luftwaffe wave;
ready to dive-bomb us back inside.
Moths were taking off and landing
like burning paper scraps
against a bonfire sun.
Figs fell from the trees
at exactly the same time as the Muezzin’s siren call began,
punctuated by the click of a microphone.
Modern life beat a path inland
as you beat me at backgammon.
A Few Words about Caution
Don’t enter the coop with a calculator
until you are certain
you hear the tapping of beak on albumen.
Knife Throwers’ Assistant
I hand myself to him on a plate
twice a day, night after night.
I am not one for tempting fate;
luck gets taken for no ride, or a fool.
NO FLASH PHOTOGRAPHY
is a steadfast, rock-solid rule.
Don’t talk to me of faith.
I have to remember the knives are thrown around me
and never at or against.
I have grown to see this:
His aim is his word, and it is true.
I freely take part in this tryst.
Trust being the currency here,
we spend it wisely.
We don’t talk after work or come near.
I need no holds over him, or he over me.
For obvious reason we keep the other
precisely where we want them to be.
Arms at five past and five to,
feet at twenty five to and past;
then a whoosh as the blade is passing through:
Six in as many seconds as balloons burst.
Even if he were to hit me
the show must always come first.
When I started people came here
to be entertained, or cheaply thrilled
It’s getting harder to keep the audiences’ attention;
sometimes I suspect blood needs to be spilled.
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In here no one hears trees falling, or do they?
I have listened and lost interest and the will;
being too caught up in the noises of blood in my ears
and the ferrety noises of insects and animals.
I no-longer sweat,
or can no-longer be sure it is me.
It could be moisture, or
what’s left of my clothes transforming the heat.
I have learnt to be comfortable pissing myself,
like a deep sea diver.
It’s all I can feel now,
reminds me I am still alive.
Insects pass by to inspect
what I suspect will become theirs.
It is not the casual rabbit
or idling hare that I fear.
I had always doubted the industry of ants,
of stag beetles or the point of centipedes.
I am in no doubt.
Now I believe.
How did I get here?
You may well ask.
It was Him who breezed through here;
opened a hospital not long after opening hours,
posing for pictures, signings and souvenirs.
He shook more than hands it would seem;
or so they say, by the looks of things
and from what I have seen.
Each trip home from the unaffordable college
would yield new information,
some new piece of knowledge.
I was done with working out fact or fiction;
the beans needed to be spilt.
I wanted the origins of my cut glass diction.
Looks from people in corners of locals and from behind
tiny shop counters began to add up,
whispers and close encounters of the sir kind
put the courage to my convictions.
You were strangely quieter, anthems were never sung.
Fault lines appeared through the friction.
News travels, and I intend to follow it.
Take it from me, mark my every word,
the bait has been dangled; I will not swallow it.
This has been bungled, soft-soaped, mis-handled.
Seen and not heard, is all I was expected to do.
I am up off of my knees now; think of the scandal.
They call me the “Mynah Bird”.
It’s a little trick of mine,
I will become a tiny bit of you when we talk;
your inflections slip to me over time.
In a heart pulse, or a blink of an eye
my accent changes on a sixpence.
It’s not an echo, or Doppler Effect.
I am no siren, though I draw you in close.
You will feel nothing when everything you have
becomes my weapon of choice.
All I have to work with is pulled
from your shows and tells; your very own voice.
We’re kith and kin now,
cut from a cloth and of the same kidney.
You’ve sold yourself short,
now what have you left to give me?